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Showing posts with label questions. Show all posts

what am i doing, what i am doing.

hi,


here's a secret. i mostly write this blog using proper capitalization, but if you knew me, you'd know that's not how i talk when i'm talking to friends.

you can be my friend tonight.


what am i doing. what i am. here's a few things:

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i'm reading ander monson's other electricities. i'm only like 30 pages in. it's growing inside me. it's everything i need to be reading right now. it's signed. it says something about the white space. i am in it? wherever here is.

"section breaks."

i care about them lately. i'm learning a lot. i'm figuring things. i feel full at the moment. full in the large/wanting way, which is one of my favorites. it makes me wander around with my headphones in, makes me turn music up loud. the snow underfoot.


i am writing.
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fell out of my purse: one purple glove. a borrowed hat. cigarette butts i didn't want to throw on the ground. another glove, one of the warm pair i found in my desk. who left it? but i traced my steps back across the street and i found it.

fell out of my pocket: a cigarette case, backseat of car, it says hida. a lighter. found it in snowdrift days later. it's working again. sometimes things need to rest.

my purse broke.


who put these up?
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what does postmodern mean? someone said someone said i was that. i think it means i'm trying too hard. i'm going to try not to try so hard. ha ha, ha ha, haaa.



coffeeshop has great graffiti.

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smiling at you. smiling at all of you.


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here's a picture.

-gen & billy
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i care about barns, too.





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i'm in boston. i flew here. i'm happy to be here. i miss minneapolis.

how crazy is that?


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this is my desk.


i just finished my first semester as a teacher.

thanks, students.
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mmm, i'm tired. sorry, i know i haven't said much.

bye again.

Let's Take a Vote (De-Lurk, Ye Lurkers)


So, I kind of feel like I should take the blog down, start over with a less guess what happened to me today/work sucks/I like cider beer approach.

Try to be more serious and professional, mwah ha ha? Since I'm going to be starting this program, and I'm going to be teaching, and I feel like I'm supposed to have a "myrealname.com" sort of website, where I (try to) say brilliant things in a charming, writerly manner.

I sorta feel like an idiot, now that I know I'm not really as anonymous as I thought I was. I have fun with this little bloglet, though---and I'm not sure I have the time to be serious, right now.

Pretty please, let me know what you think. Is this blog too embarrassing for a future MFA student? Could I ever put my real name on it without dying of shame? I know it's a silly little site, but what if I promise to start being more put together, before the program starts?

What would you do? Are there any redeeming qualities, or has this blog served its purpose---getting me through the MFA admissions season with my gray matter intact?

PS---No blowing smoke where it doesn't belong!